[ 妳比想像中的自己還強大太多了 You’re way more strong than you think ] —————————————————————————— 哇！妳在發光耶！」一位認識至深的好朋友對我這樣說著，才意識到，對耶，我整個身心狀態終於穩定下來了，而且感到前所未有的滿足與安心，更可以說是喜樂。
療癒自己本來就不是一次完成，而是一個過程，有高有低、有起有落，試著學會接受自己的每一面，努力的找方法讓自己變好，然後，找回內在那閃閃發亮的自己。 - 「對啊！我現在真的開心多了」我說。 - “Damn, you’re GLOWING!” , a real close friend of mine said to me. Then I suddenly realize, right, oh my god, I’m finally in a flow. I finally feel content, whole and complete again.
August was pretty tough for me. On the outside, I moved alone, preparing for my brand, managing to afford myself financially, adjusting to my new life. On the inside, there were battles and battles ongoing every single day. Old wounds, new stress, make me feel worthless. I was in a really vulnerable state. That I could easily be affected by other people’s worlds, emotions, and energy.
One day, my friend recommended me a book, and another friend helped me downloaded audiobook app. I was so wiped out and busy, but still tried to squeeze out time to read everyday, consistently.
I was in agony, but didn’t stop trying to find a way to make myself feel better. And also fortunate enough to have my dear friends’ help.
I was so drawn into the books I read, I was able to detach from the outer world, and look deep inside of my inner space. Meanwhile I’ve been committed to meditating everyday. Learning to focus on breathing, visualizing, and letting go. Now I can do at least 40 minutes of mediation everyday.
It was hard, of course, when you had so many worries and thoughts but trying to sit there for minutes. But with consistent practice, I FEEL lighter and lighter. I make meditation and self care to my priority.
(to be continued.) #HerAndNow #YouDeserveTheBest